Monday, February 26, 2007

I told my friends about The Friend Saturday night. I'd been keeping it a secret from everyone but those who read my blog (isn't it strange how it's totally easy to divulge personal information to complete strangers but not to your best friends?). But Saturday night was: drinks, girls night with my best friends who I hadn't gone out with in ages, more drinks, dancing, more drinks, blabbing.

I believe the confessing/explaining started when The Friend texted me for the 2nd time that night. Because I'd been drinking, my censor was off and I exclaimed to my friend Leslie that I thought The Friend had a thing for me. She knew we had hung out recently just from casual conversation, but didn't know the extent of it. Neither did my best friend/roommate. So I let them in on the dinner, the sleeping over, the Valentine's Day dinner. I told them how I was feeling strange about everything since I'm not really interested in The Friend BUT he is SO nice and such a good guy and don't I finally deserve a guy who doesn't treat me like crap? (Reference: A or FFG). Of course they both agreed, especially Leslie, that I need someone to treat me the way I deserve to be treated. But does that mean I should date The Friend? Not necessarily says my best friend Jill. So what is a girl to do? Just keep being confused.

At this point, I feel like I've totally blown The Friend off, but I haven't really. There have just been other plans or no plans/staying in, so I've gone out with him in a couple weeks. And the next 2 weekends I will be out of town/very busy so I won't have to feel confused until at least St Patrick's Day is over.


Emmie said...

Wish you good luck. Hope all your problems and confusions come to an end soon.
Drop into my blog on friendship greeting cards for some friendly tips and beautiful e-cards.

Maxwell Thomas Wastler said...

Call him tonight and come clean with him; ask him to do the same with you. All his efforts need your recognition. He needs to know that you think what he's doing indicates he shows interest in you. He deserves recognition of his efforts, an ear to hear his intentions with you, and mostly he needs your honest opinion of your mutual future.

It sounds to me as if you're not interested in him for who he is, you're interested in the fact that he treats you well. That's all you seem to find appealing about the relationship.

Don't listen to me though, I'm only taking what you've written. I don't know the whole story.

Bev said...

I do find it funny the things we'll share with blogworld, but not with our own friends/family. I think it's nice to be able to receive unbiased feedback. Unfortunately, too many of my friends and family read my blog, so I can't really post the juicy stuff.

Strange Bird said...

So true about the sharing. My best friend, who knows "everything" about me, doesn't know half the stuff I put in my blog. ;)

gerry said...

Yeah, I completely get you when you said "isn't it strange how it's totally easy to divulge personal information to complete strangers but not to your best friends?" coz that shows the kind of comfort that we often enjoy without the physical closeness with each other. Anyways, hope your issues been resolved and yeah wish that you have a truly great time on St. Patrick's day with no issues to bother you whatsoever. Do drop by my blog for some real fun stuff to do on this Irish holiday.